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| Ummm hi. I hate Dairy Queen. I don't even like their ice cream. And I work for a nazi...I swear. BUT I realized that I love everyone there so I'm going to stay for yous because let's face it, YOU ALL LOVE THE gIna...Yous told me so. Anyways, all else is well. I'm still home. I haven't ran away yet. lol Went job hunting tonight and found two other places to work. I plan on working lots this summer, like 40+ hours a week so try and catch me if you can. Drove the back country in the rain tonight, attempted to get lost, but go alot of things thought out. I feel waaaay better.
And if you are reading this, I'm not sorry. Way to remind me of how I don't want things to be.
I have seen fear. I have seen faith.
Seen the look of anger on your face.
And if you want to talk about what will be,
Come and sit with me, and cry on my shoulder,
I'm a friend.
And if you want to talk about it anymore,
Lie here on the floor and cry on my shoulder once again, cry on my shoulder,
I'm a friend. | | |
| Yes the rumors are true.
I'm home.
If you'd like me to make an appearance to your house, you know that number you should call.
Start work tomorrow. Better find my uniform.
Until later bitches,
gIna
You've got this new head filled up with smoke
And I've got my veins all tangled close
To those jukebox bars you frequent
They're the safest place to hide
A long night spent with your most obvious weakness
You start shaking at the thought you are everything I want
'Cause you are everything I'm not | | |
| Ummm....
I'll be home Thursday everybody!
My summer plans? The beach. It involves me laying on the beach, swimming, eating fries, feeding the seagulls to irritate other beachgoers and maybe rolling over so I don't tan just one side. Oh I guess I can work. But mostly beach action.
I want to go home. But I don't. I do, but I'm all set here. Alot of things have gone on and changed since I left in August. And everytime they have, I always knew that in a couple weeks or days, I could run back to IUP. Well from Thursday, there is no where else to run... No where to look forward to that gives me the satisfaction that in a couple whatevers, I'll be gone and away from it all. Soon if everyone has their way, I'll be asked where I want to live, who I'd like to spend my holidays with, etc. Well I don't know. And if I can't pull a 3.0 out of somewhere this semester, I won't be back to IUP. And if that should occur, I will find a way to be back out here, I swear. For my teammates, my friends, and myself, I will find a way. If it's the Army, fine. If it's paying for my education till I'm 83, so be it. For the love of God, I can't be home and there's no where to run to this time.
"I've had enough of this red light
I've been waiting here for so long
Driving on like reruns and feeling nothing new
Time has stopped
Resting some for this town
It's comforting to know nothing new
If I could only make a sound
Holding the stars like paintings we are
Pull one down for me
Colors alive like radiance
Swimming back to your sea
I can't explain this feeling that's been grounding me for so long
Keeping faith
I move on
Praying for something soon
How long must I scream to the guards to let me out
To the past I'm anchored..."
-- Greenwheel - Radiance
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| Ok new update since the last was in ages.
School's going great. I come home next thursday, May 11th for good...or atleast until August. (Which cannot come soon enough)
Not looking forward to coming home then again, I am. Everyone's out here now. My friends, my teammates, my everyones. I've grown quite accustomed to western PA. Its so nice out here.
My roommate rocks out here. I'm going to miss her. My teammates, I cannot wait till next season. It's gonna be soo bad ass. All of the friends I made ou heret, I'll be back during the summer so wait for THE CALL.
I don't know. I've grown ALOT since I've come here. I hate high school drama bullshit that still goes on in college. Seriously, grow the fuck up. And also, I've lost touch with some people. It's all of our faults. The telephones, they work both ways you know.
I've been thinking a lot about you (and I said, "the phone hasn't rang 'til today")
Is it true, do you hate me? (and the nights and the weekends fray)
'Cause you said, "I've been thinking a lot about you (but I know that you're time isn't cheap)
Is it true, do you hate me?" (on the nights and the weekends) | | |
| This isn't high school anymore...
Am I supposed to change?
Grow up.
 rrrrrrrgh.
Yesterday you were on my back just to get my time.
I guess it's not as precious as it seems.
Because I found the time for hanging out and not talking on the phone.
What should I expect, now that my time is free
And you're nowhere to be found.
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